bye bye Dublin...

My bags are packed and I'm ready to leave in less than 12 hours.

Bye bye Dublin...

I'll be back one day InsyaAllah :)

Exam-stress!

Next paper in 2 days. Gosh! I'm so stress! Too many things to memorize!

On other issue...

I just hate liars & pretenders. It is easy for a person to promise this and that. And it is easy to say things like "I can't wait to see you b". When in reality flirting with girls is like your full-time job. I just don't get it. Is there really no decent sincere guy in this world for me?

How am I suppose to believe whatever that you told me came sincerely from your heart? The friendship, relationship or whatever you want to call it, has it become a waste of time? Is it so easy for you to switch from one girl to another? (And you told me that you guys are just friends?). I guess I'm just another of your 'friends'.

Gosh! Exam is stressful enough. And why am I thinking about you who don't even bother to call or text me to say hi. Or even wish me good luck for my exam.

The temporary time-off (that I need for my exam) has become permanent now (thanks to your ignorance).

Oh goshh.. I don't even know why I even bother to blog about this. Why I even think about you.

I should forget about you. I should forget that I shared lots of things with you. I should just forget the happy moments, the arguments we had. I should just forget about the promise we made to meet in January when I'm back home. I should just delete you...

Hurmm...

How I wish I meet a person who is decent & sincere in love.

study study study!!!

Study mode ON! It's been a busy busy busy time of the year for me. It's the exam month! I've been struggling to insert the notes into my brain each day. How I wish I could just boil the notes and drink the water (if the knowledge can be transfer just like that! Hahaha....) Or maybe I can just borrow Elina's brain for my exam? Brilliant! :D

On another issue, I just can't wait to go home :) There are lots of reason why I can't wait!!!

1. I miss the family hugs, kisses, fights, outings, events, and anything that includes family in it
2. My friends back home who I've missed out a lot! The 2-times-meeting-in-4-years can't compare to weekly outings! Gosh! I miss you guys badly!!! Make time for meeeeeee...!!!! :)
3. The F.O.O.D.!!!! I miss the yummy food. (A reminder: Don't be fat!)
4. My house! My own room! My own bed! I'm so gonna redecorate it to perfection.
5. To get myself a job! Money! WooOhoOO..... ;)
6. To meet new people *wink*wink* lolsss...

And a lot more reason which I can't think of right now. Grr.... My mind has been block by my excessive consumption of P7 notes (haha! as if!)

I better go now. Need to fix myself a simple dinner. Fish & Chips anyone? :)

xoxo

coldness!

It's freezing cold in Dublin for the past few days. Windy, foggy & rainy at the same time. It becomes a nightmare to go outside! Luckily my class finished already, so I don't have to walk a dreadful 30 minutes to college each time.

Lectures ended, revision classes ended.... The real battle is growing closer each day. I'm time-pressured right now. I feel like I need 34 hours each day & NOT 24 hours only! At least I'm no longer sick. But the coldness makes me feel like crawling inside my duvet and just stay in there for the whole winter!

I feel so lucky that I'll be running away from the ever-famous Irish weather soon!!! But I know I'll miss it from time to time. But what the heck! The food back home is a lot better! Thinking of food... my tummy was filled with yummy chicken curry & sambal ikan bilis. A truly classic m'sian dinner cooked by ms.akma :) Thank you for the excessive hospitality from the Tenterfields' girls!

I gotta go and sleep now. It's freezing and my pillows & duvets look so tempting! Goodnight all and sweet dreams!

xoxo

mr.sunshine?

Before anyone ask me who is mr.sunshine, I better clear things up.

mr.sunshine = the sun in m'sia

I miss mr.sunshine... Irish weather is getting horrible each day. It is very cold now and I don't feel like going to my place to take my remaining cloths. *sigh* It's only a 5 minutes walk and it feels forever!!!

Whoever that think mr.sunshine is a person has been fool by me eh? ;) I'm still waiting for a decent guy to approach me one fine day. Maybe that one fine day going to happen next year? We will have to find out together! :)

I think I better go and take a nap. This pill makes me drowsy....

P/S: Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all my family and friends wherever you are :)

I'm officially a Tenterfields! :)

I've moved out from my apartment today. I'm now one of the Tenterfields' Girls! :) I'm moving-in with the girls (Tasha, Akma, Elina & Amy) temporarily. I'll be staying at their place until the day comes. What day? The day I'm catching my flight back home :D :D :D

It was a tiring moving-in. Thanks to Suria & Tasha for the helping hand. Now I'm happy in my pyjamas in the room typing away my favourite blog.

I still have some of my sickness. The weather helps in my 'recovery'. Hurmmm... Typical Irish weather. I can't wait to meet mr.sunshine!

I gotta go now. Tasha & I are going to Lidl to get some groceries :)

yucky sicky, plz go away now...

I'm still sick. I had fever, sore throat, huge headache and now runny nose! yucks! I eat a lot of panadols and Strepsils but it doesn't work. Rina had to get me more panadols because I ran out of it. I hope I'll feel better tomorrow. I have stuff to do, I have to study for god sake!

Please get well soon body. I need you for the exam. I also need you for the London trip and the trip back home. I need you to be healthy once I touch down in KL. I have family gatherings which I'm so looking forward! I'm meeting my friends who I've missed soooo much! Yummy food to die for. What else? My special mission (whatever it is... hehehee...)

This sickness makes me homesick. I text few of my friends in KL just now. I can't wait to see them. All of them promised to take me out for food fiesta! Yippee!!! Thinking of them make me smile and happy after all the things I've been through. I try hard to be strong each day. If by texting and calling my friends/family makes me feel stronger, I'll do it.

Oh boy... Where can I find a decent man?

Note to myself: Have fun being single!

sickness...:'(

I'm officially sick :'( I had sore throat, fever and huge headache!!! Is it because of the tap water I drink yesterday? I can't drink it, but I did. How stupid am I? Hurmmm...

Anyway, I went to watch New Moon with Serene and Anwar (yes, I'm the 3rd wheel!!! haha..), and the movie is as expected. I finished all 4 books of Twilight saga. So I knew what's going to happen. But I'm amazed by Jacob's body! Hotness!!! I guess bye bye Edward for now... hehe...

I had a huge fight with someone today. It really pissed me off! I don't think I can trust that person anymore. A liar will always find ways to lie and cover the truth. Even though there are evidences! I don't need a person like you by my side. Just stop hurting me and go away.

I had a long chat with Serene today,and every time I talked to her, I feel a lot better. She should be a counselor and specialize on relationship problems. She makes me feel better and a lot stronger each day. What will I do without you hot mama! (Oh yeah.. she's happily married to Anwar and pregnant with his baby!). Looking at her... It is possible to be happy. I know that some day, some where, I will meet that special someone like she did.

Oh crap... My headache is getting worst! CK asked me to drink 100Plus. I guess I need to go to Asia Market and get some ASAP. I really need my strength to study for the coming exam! First thing first.. need to get some sleep now. Goodnight all!

xoxo

love is never fair

My love life suck big time. I'm never good at it. I guess being single have certain advantages. But each day I'm reminded by the disadvantages more often than ever. I envy those people who can live their live without a partner and never worries about it. Maybe by focusing their mind on their job, college, family or other things make them stronger and an absent of a partner doesn't affect their lives that much.

How I wish I could be like those people. I've told myself thousands of time that I can do it. I can live on my own. I don't need to accept any guy that came into my life. Those guys can stay as friends. I can still live as a girl who can decide everything for herself. I don't need to be yell at, or accused for something I didn't do.

I don't need to be told 'I have no feelings for you anymore', or 'I think we should break-up caused you are different now', or 'We want different things in life' or other craps guys always told a girl when they are bored. Or maybe it is just for fun?

And I also don't need to be yell at, accused each day for not being loyal. When the only thing I did was going to work/college, and rarely go out with my friends. Let alone my guy friends. Is it simply impossible for a girl to have guys as their best friend? FYI, I have few guys as my best friend and 'surprisingly' they never take advantage of me.

This year 2009 has been the toughest year for me. Everything from work, college, my love life and other things I need to deal with. I know my decision to go back to my family is the only wise decision I made, even though it is hard.

Love is never fair to me. But at least I'm going back to my eternal love, the one that matters always, and will never tell me all those hurtful things I've been through all this years...My family.

Maybe my prince charming get lost and couldn't find his way to me. It is ok. I'll wait patiently until the day comes. In the mean time, I just want to be happy.

lost track?

I might have lost track of time, place, people... I'm just so blur this past few weeks. Too many things to handle and settle. Too many hearts to satisfied. And I ended up so tired, weak, lifeless! At least few things settled, and I'm happy for now.

Now I can focus on my studies 100%. My mind been away too many times. And now I think I got it back, and it might have hurt some people in the process. But what I need is time and space to study. I have nothing left here in Dublin other than my studies. A reminder.. I'm still jobless.

I do have good news. I bought my flight ticket to Malaysia! YES! I'm going back home for good. And I'm very happy with my decision. I can't wait to see my family and actually live with them! I don't have to be homesick ever again!

I guess I have few weeks left to hang out with my friends in Dublin. I'm going to miss you guys so much! Let's hang out before I leave aite. Spend some quality time together :) AFTER exam of course!

Wish me luck with my studies and exam!

stop yelling!

I don't need another person to yell at me every day. My life is complicated enough and I seriously don't need the yelling and the accusations.

I have my studies to catch up with, and I really need to be focusing on it. My studies/certs are the things that I'll bring with me forever.

I want to stop arguing and yelling with you. If you can't accept who I am, my friends, the way I live my life, my weird ways of thinking... Or maybe you can no longer wait for me, tell me now.

p/s: really not in a good mood this past few days. I hate myself!

my priorities...

I've never mention in here on my priorities. But I think I should as a reminder to myself.

My first priority is towards my family. I'm a family person. I can't live without them. Surprisingly I'm still alive after 4 years living abroad! Don't forget the continuous phone calls and text messages everyday between me and them. I miss them dearly...

My second priority is towards myself. It includes my studies and my career. For now, I have to witheld the career part. I'm still jobless and surviving on my savings. But I've click my full-time student mode and can't wait to finish up my last 3 papers! Wish me luck! :)

My third priority is towards that special someone. If I actually have one! Heheheeee...

My fourth priority is towards my friends. I have wonderful friends that I love to stick with til I'm old and gray.

P/S: My Fedex Raya arrived 30mins ago!!! :D Thanks mama & ayah!

i feel like screaming!

At this very moment, I do feel like screaming!

It is hard to accept the fact that you are losing someone to certain circumstances. I move forward each day as hard as I can. But sometimes I slipped. Going back there is painfull. It makes my life miserable and sad.

I guess this is another phase of my miserable life that I have to deal with. I don't think I can forget it easily or ever. Thanks for the sweet memories, but losing you as a friend is very hard for me to accept.

I guess you are right. Things aren't always the way they seem.

Nobody knows what is really happening inside. One thing for sure, I feel like screaming or maybe crying can make me feel better? Who knows... I tried that before, it seems to work for a while. Will my tears make me feel better this time? I hope it will...

P/s: Mixed emotions lead to this entry. Happy Ramadhan all!

good news!!! :D

OK! So I might over-react or wutever. But I'm really happy! :D

I took 2 papers on my last exam, and I pass 1! I got really good marks! Yippee!!!! Eventho I only pass 1 out of 2, I'm still jumping up and down!!!! Gosh! I'm really happy after a very loooong time!

Congrats to my friends who pass all papers, and one of them is already affiliate! Wait for me girl!!! I'm going to be next! hehehehee...

another movie i love :)

Yes! I can't stop watching romantic movies! I'm a sucker for romantic movies :)

It's another old movie which I love to watch and will never get bored.

Sleepless in Seattle (1993)

pretty.woman.

I just finished watching Pretty Woman. I love this movie! It was a movie made in 1990 (when I was only 6 yrs old!). I remember watching it when I was in primary school with my big sis. I love it straight away. And I keep watching it all through out my teenage yrs!

I download it a couple days ago and watched it just now. I had this butterfly feelings whenever I watched it, and I still do have it, tonight! I just love the movie!

Gosh! I know I'm a romantic-movie-freak this past weeks. But I just can't help it!

You know what people always say... When you are happy, you want the whole world to know. Well I am happy :)

plz watch this movie!

This post is entirely for a movie I just finished watching!

I'm totally in love with this movie. Plz buy the dvd, or just download it, or whatever. But to girlz out there, this movie is the best romantic movie ever!

THE OTHER END OF THE LINE (2008)

a great weekend i had :)

How was ur long weekend ppl? 3 days of holiday must be fully utilised! Despite the fact I'm on holiday every day! I had so much fun for straight 3 days with my crazeeee friends.

Serene, Nuar & Tasha sleepover the whole weekend. Saturday was great fun. We watched horror movies, a few rounds of uno, more horror stories, groceries shopping for our BBQ the next day,wedding pics/vids of Serene & Nuar, more stories of friends getting married practically every weekend!!! (kinda stressing me out a little :p) Hehe...

Sunday was super fun!!! BBQ at my place. Lotsa food consumed. Yummy food including ice-cream! We had a few round of uno again! Hehehehehe.. It was really fun :) The funniest part was the karaoke+dancing=my place was turned into a club by my beloved housemate Muntaz! Hahahaa.. But everyone had a blast ;) MIA was Dila (who is on her loooong holiday in KL), Suria & Mex (on holiday at Prague).

Today was a bit slow. We woke up really late. Lazying around, eating instant noodle, watched another horror movie! :p More horror stories from Serene! She have really good horror stories! Cool eh? ;)

Oh yeah... We had a 2 hour drama session to close up our great weekend. Thanks for spicing up our weekend!

Moving on....

I'm really happy with what I have now. I have great friends & great housemates in Dublin. I'm thankful that I have them to turn too when I'm sad, happy, crazy, just whatever! And I try my best to be someone they can rely on as well. This friendship that I found, the memories I had with you girls/guys, all the things that we went through together make our friendship stronger. InsyaAllah with His permission, we will continue to grow this friendship that we have until the end.

Another thing, I freak out when I saw all the wedding invitations & pictures of my friends every week in FB. Either they are married, engaged or thinking too. Some of them even have their own kids now! Looking at myself, I'm single, 25 years old, jobless, unfinish ACCA, I should feel sad. I have the rights to feel sad. And I did! I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of loserland. I'm not saying that I want to get married now. But it would be nice to have someone by my side in long-term.

But when I think about it again... WTH! I should enjoy my freedom. After telling my close friends how I feel, they said it is normal to feel this way. It is the 25-years-old-syndrome! (maybe i should google this!) I'm stuck in middle 20s now when most ppl are deciding on their next BIG step. That BIG step could be anything. So I made up my mind to focus on what I have now & be thankful.

I have loving family who support me all the way, great friends & housemates, that 'mystery' person that I call/text now & then, & of course I have myself. With all of this in mind, I'm happy with the fact that I can now move on & just be happy with my life :)

I'm really happy that my next destination will be Kuala Lumpur in Dec. Home sweet home... I can't wait to hug my mom, dad, sis, bros, nephews & niece! I can't wait to meet that 'mystery' person live. I can't wait to catch up with my friends back home. I just can't wait to be home.

i can be happy

How was your weekend??? Mine was great! :)

I spend Saturday morning cleaning up the apartment, my room & the main bathroom. It's squeky clean. Hehehehee.... In the afternoon, me & my housemates cook delicious lunch/dinner. We had Nasi Hujan Panas, Ayam Masak Merah & Dhal. Yummy! We invited a couple of friends over & had a great time!!! We even surprised Rina with a cake! It was her b'day & she was well.... SURPRISED! She didn't expect it at all. Another successful surprised ;) Serene & Nuar brought 2 big box of ice-cream & banana! Can you imagine how much fat we all consumed in a couple of hours???? Hahahahaa.. Plenty!!!

Sunday was a bit slow... I woke up early despite the fact that I slept at 3.30am talking with Serene & Nuar the night before! They came over around 5pm on Sunday for more hanging out & we watched a movie. It's a good movie, but very stressful! (Tasha lost most of her nails while watching this movie! Hahahahahaa...) OBSESSION, Beyonce in it. Highly recommended to girls.

As for today, I'm sitting on my bed while waiting for my friend Adura to reply my text. She came to Dublin for holiday & I'm suppose to meet her up for lunch. I think I got a minor headache coz I slept at 5am. Oh oh ohh.... I need to go for my daily shower & get ready.

But I'm still waiting for that certain someone to text me... Not Adura. Another person. Hurmm... Should I call? Damn I'm hungry!

xoxo

just be friends

news flash!

Nothing new! Really! I'm still jobless, single and bored. Hahahaha...

BUT I had fun doing double surprises for ms.akma dolls & ms.suria b'day! Lotsa pics in FB. Check it out aite. Happy Birthday again to both girlz, my babes! I love you both so much! xoxo :)

Oh, to that certain someone...
Buzz off! Stop creating sad sappy stories to make ppl pity you. You are a liar, a liar & definitely a liar. One day ppl will noticed that you are the bad person, not the other ppl that you've been talking about. Just like us, we now knew your true color. Thanks for your 'friendship', but we don't need a friend like you anymore.

Enuff of this nonsense. Moving on...

I've been thinking a lot about relationship, love, lovers & friendship (Not that I have anything to do other than seeking for jobs). There are few questions which pop-up in mind, & I don't mind sharing it with you guys. Probably you can answer it for me :)

1. Is it possible for a long-distance relationship to work out?
2. Is it possible to fall in love with someone you meet online?
3. Is it possible to love someone, but not in love with them?
4. Is it possible to stay friends with your ex-bf/gf?

I've been reading this great book on breakup, & it helps me a lot in dealing with my feelings. I read half of it & I can't wait to finish it up.

It's Called A Breakup Because It's Broken
The Smart Girl's Breakup Buddy

Author : Greg Behrendt & Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt

This should be read after He's Just Not That Into You (Another great book on relationship). I highly recommend both book to girls out there who need help on guys, breakups & staying on track with your life.

I guess that's it. Hope you guys had a great week ahead. I know I am coz I'm going to watch Harry Potter on Tues, & we are having potato soup party on Weds ;) My weekend is still free at the moment. But I have few plan in mind >>> Singstar party, movie-marathon nights, Twister anyone? :)

xoxo

Miracles!

I'm still waiting for a miracle to happen to ME! There are few things in life now that I really need some sort of improvements. Firstly and the most important for now is job hunting. If only I can get my hands on any accounts job will be fine. Even if it is just a part-time job. I need MONEY to survive.

Secondly will be my exam result. The result is coming out middle of August. Please please please tell me that I pass both papers. I need to pass this time.

Thirdly is my love life. Why why why I'm always unlucky in this section of my life? Arghh! Please God, let me meet and fall for someone that is real. I'm tired falling in and out of love. There are times that I don't feel like meeting someone new and it's becoming harder for me to trust a guy. I'm scared that the next guy is just the same as the previous ones.

Ok that's it. No more sad sappy story of my life. Enjoy the video below. It is really funny :)

Job search starts?

I've start searching for a new job at last! I got my strength back and I'm going to try my best. Looking at the active jobs available which is a lot less than 2 years ago actually scare me a little. I've been thinking about what happen if I don't get any job? What if I fail my exam again? Should I stay in Dublin or should I go back for good? A lot in my mind, and I don't even have the answer.

Big Bos a.k.a daddy want me to stay until I finish up my ACCA. But my little heart is screaming to go back home. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss life in KL. I miss home. I miss being spoil. I miss not-doing-anything. I miss the food. I miss... I miss... I miss...... I miss it all.

And of course, I feel lonely in Dublin. The loneliness is killing me slowly... :'(

me-life-now

It's been a while since I last post something here. Lots have been happening in my life. Starting with myself losing my job. Yes, I've been made redundant. Exam was not as expected. I studied so hard and I still think I'm not doing my best. What else? Oh yeah... I went to Amsterdam and Brussels for a short vacation.

And singleton life is killing me! So to anyone who is single and interesting, please leave ur foot step in my lonely heart. Haha... Joking! I'm not that desperate. But I miss those times when I knew I have someone to turn too each day, whenever I'm feeling happy or sad. So anyone? :)

Damn I'm bored!!! I don't know what to do!

happy birthday to me :)

miserable life i have...

I'm very stress and emotional at the moment. Nope! I'm SUPER-DUPER stress and emotional since Friday. Things not working as planned. Got into a BIG fight with SM. Sorry ms.akma if what I said hurt u in any way (I want the best for u). I missed my mom and dad. I got a strong feeling that my bro is pissed off with me (sorry bro. I'll make it up to u). Exam is in 2 weeks. I don't even have the mood to study. I feel like throwing ALL my books/notes to the bin! I don't even feel like talking to anyone right now.

At least SM is back to normal. But I feel so lost and lonely... I seriously need a hug,a big hug preferably from my mom and dad. I think I'm homesick. It's been a while since I felt this way. I want to go home! Now!

*sob*sob*sob*

Yes.. I have a miserable life here in Dublin.

i'm sorry... i don't hate u.never.

So last night I was in a silly argument. Without thinking, I said out loud -You evil! I hate u!-. I know it was too late to cover up my mouth! Gosh! How can I be so mean?? So I was hoping that SM didn't hear what I said! Too bad for me, SM heard it and asked me to repeat!!! I feel like I wanna hide under my duvet, switch off my phone for eternity, off the buzzer to my apartment, and just stay quietly in my room! And pray that SM will never find me! Hehee...

To SM, I'm really sorry... I don't hate you. Never! You are my life saver. You know that. And I love you for that. I have to get rid of all this negative vibes in me, and talk nicely. THINK BEFORE I SAY SOMETHING!

On other issue, I need to get serious with the books! Exam is less than 3 weeks and I need to focus! So please please please go away (to all the things that distract me) and let me study (not sleeping!).

Taa!!!

climbing up the stairs.. erk.. books??!

Yup, I am climbing up the stairs of books! hahahaaa...

home alone...

The girlz are off for a road trip today and will be back on Sunday. I'll be home alone the whole weekend! It's been a while since I was left alone in the apartment. Hurmm... I think I'll be fine. I need to study neway.

Oh. Another thing. I just hate it when people who barely knows me talked bad things about me. Telling other people how I used to be like. Hello.... Are you even my friend? So how do you know what's been going on in my life for the past years? I wonder... And it's obviously none of your business! And please stop creating stories about me or my friends, saying nasty things when obviously you don't even have a friend? I pity you at first. But now you are just pissing me off.

The only reason that make me stop from 'attacking' you is .. You are just not worth my time. So buzz off and leave me alone. And leave my friends too. Maybe you have a miserable life and you just can't sit still when you see other people happy. But... Whatever! Like I care! Just stay away from me and my friends.

Why? Why? Why? Why?!!! Why people like you just can't leave me alone? I don't even wanna be your friend, and I don't even care about you to actually talked about you. And you are wasting my 10min to blog about you? Damn! Just stay away and I'll be fine. And stop talking nonsense that can make me fight with my friends.

Sorry.. I'm a little bit emo this morning. Hope you guys have a good weekend. I know I'm not.

tired-i need a hug-now

I feel so tired. And all I want is a hug. Someone to comfort me by talking or maybe not talk at all. I don't really mind. As long as I'm not alone to deal with this uncomfortable feelings.

I need someone to hug me, kiss my forehead and tell me everything is going to be ok. Hold my hands and whisper to my ears that I will someday become the best that I can be. I need someone to be by my side when I open my eyes in the morning and smile at me. Looking forward to spend each day together... Smiling, laughing and even fight once in a while.

Btw, I found this song in my iPod. I can't even remember when I download it. I love it! And it has nothing to do with what happen to me. I've moved on remember? :) Enjoy it!

i want more! i need more!

I definitely need more time! I need more time to study! 6 weeks until my next exam!

I need more patience! Definitely at work. But I'm loving my job each day. I just need more patience.

I need to control myself. Please do not turn into the emotional-sensitive-angry-fairy-most-of-the-time. I hate it whenever I become too sensitive on small issues. Especially when there's absolutely nothing to sulk! It's driving me nuts!!!

p/s: please bear with ME for now...

my long weekend!

How was your loooooong weekend? Good Friday+Weekend+Easter hols=GREAT FUN! :)

I spend my Good Friday lazying in my room until 4pm! Haha... Then I went out and have lunch/dinner with Akma, Tasha and Marwan. Gossips and more gossips! :)

The Saturday road trip was cancel last minute due to expensive car rentals. But myself, Suria and Mex decided to have fun our own way. Haha.. We took the RailTours to Wicklow-Avoca-BallyKissAngel-Glendalough. The weather was perfect! The scenery is breath taking. We really enjoyed the half-day tour.



On Easter Sunday, I had BBQ potluck with few close friends. It's been a while since I last hang out with them. It was really fun. We ate BBQ chicken/lamb/burger/sausages. Suria cook delicious Carbonara and Mex bought the charcoal (totally forgot to buy extras!). Tasha and Akma made the best fruit cocktails (yummylicious!). And thanks to Marya and Gogon for the drinks. Next potluck will be at Kings Court eh? Heheheheee.... More pics in FB!





I'm so happy that this week starts on Tuesday. No Monday blues. But I'll probbaly have Black Tuesday tomorrow. Hahaa... I'm suppose to be in bed right now. But I slept from 6 to 10pm just now. And I'm wide awake with nothing to do. I guess I'll make the phone call to that someone before I hit my bed and fluffy pillows again.

Thanks to all that contribute to my great fun looooong weekend! To other friends who were not invited, sorry!!! My next potluck will be with you guys :)

random post

Can you imagine living with no water to wash, shower and drink??? That's what my housemates and I are facing right now. Stupid tank which always fail to work at least once a year. Damn you! I'll just have to wait patiently for the plumber to fix it. Hopefully today. I need to do my laundry! No more under garments, no more work cloths, and no more cute sexy pyjamas to wear (I can go naked now... Haha!!!). I guess I'll have to do my laundry at Akma's place 2nite after class.

p/s: FYI, I showered this morning :)

I just realized that I no longer put pics/vids on my post. How boring is my blog? Haha... Even the Paddy's Day vids is still in my digicam!!!

On other random stuff... I wanna go to Paris, Nice and Spain! :) One of my random wish list this year. Hehe...

the truth

I wonder what you told our friend. I should have known what you are gonna tell everyone. That I dump you and I'm always too busy for you. FYI, you dump me! And this is not the first time. Sorry if I have move on and can't take your bullshit anymore. But stop calling our friends and tell them lies. You don't want to be blame, so you blaming me for everything? Oh yeah… I'm the one who's always busy with my work and friends. If I don't work, how the hell am I suppose to survive?!! And friends? I only have few and I barely hang out with them coz I'm always at home waiting for your phone calls or waiting for you to go online (but you never did). I used to stay at home on weekends just to pleased you. Coz I know you don't like the idea of me going out and having fun without you. I never cheated on you and I'm the one who texted you everyday (even though there were no reply at all from you, I keep on texting).

I thought you were the one who's always busy with work? Hang out with friends whenever you got a chance? Even when you got yourself the wireless card, you didn't tell me? I figured it out myself when I saw you online in your room twice. You said you don't wanna tell me stuffs coz you don't want me to worry. And why the hell do you need a girlfriend when you can keep everything to yourself and not share anything with me? It was you who made the decision for both of us. I have no say at all. You dump me whenever you feel like doing it. And you'll call and pretend nothing was wrong everytime. I was stupid enough to just ignore all the things that you said and accept you back again and again. But this time, when I decided enough is enough, you think I dump you.

Hello… Did you forget the text msg you send me at 6 a.m.? I woke up and cried like a crazy girl. Wondering why on earth you did this to me again and again. I cried for 2 days and still no text or phone calls from you. That's when I decided to be strong and move on with my life. I have a good job and lovely friends (who I wish to spend more time with from now on!) and loving family. And when did you realize you were losing me for good? A week and half after that?! I guess it was too late since I already made up my mind. If only you called me earlier, I might forgive you again. But no, it's over this time for good.

So now you are free like a butterfly as you wished.

ms.sleepy head :p

I'm ms.sleepy head. I keep on dozing off at the office!!! Infront of my PC with all the documents buried on my face! Hahahaaa... Work have been very busy (but not right now coz I'm blogging from office! :p).

I feel like typing everything here. But as usual, I stop myself from doing it. I told myself that private stuffs should not be disclose to the world. Enough that my family and close friends knew what's happening in my life.

To those people who hardly knows me, please don't assume you know what's happening in my life. Right now I'm trying to live my life differently. I want to be more adventurous and take bigger risk compared to what I've done before.

I hope this time it is going to work out :)

Thanx to ms.akma dollslavida (again!) and ms.suria for the support. Love you girls so much!

P/S: If you have spare time, watch Once and the OST is superb!

Life is full of surprises!

Yes! Life is full of surprises! :)

*to those people who knows what I mean... haha!*

I'll keep on smiling... :)

My days are filled with happy thoughts and excitement! I love ME now more than ever. I called my parents yesterday, and listening to their voice makes me smile. I really miss them, and they miss me a lot. It's ok mama and ayah. I'm going back for holiday again in Dec! I know it's a long wait but I'm pretty much excited :)

I'm doing great if that's what you want to know. I'm really happy now. Work is busy as always and I like it. It keeps my mind off those negative thoughts. Classes are fun with all the nice friends I have. Not forgetting ms. akma dollslavida who is always here for me! Love u babe!

My weekends were filled with fun (but healthy) activities! No more staying at home, under my duvet for the whole weekend waiting for something miracle to happen! Haha!

Oh yeah.. It was Paddy's Day on 17th March. I went out with my friends to see the parade. It was ok, but not as good as last year. I got to spend more time with my friends and my lovely housemates! Muntaz, Rina and Dila cooked a delicious meal! It was Nasi Hujan Panas, Ayam Masak Merah and Kari Dhal. It was heaven!!!! :D It was the first time in months that I ate 2 plates of rice! 2 plates! Hehehehee...

And I watched Slumdog Millionaire. It is indeed a good movie :) You should watch it.

I guess that's it for now. Until my next post... Take care all!

time to decide?

I'm not sure what you want from me. I thought you made up your mind already? When you told me to forget everything, I cried. I cried really hard and you have no idea how much you hurt me. And now you want to talk?

Once I made up my mind, I won't turn back. Thanks to you, I've been doing a lot of thinking. I think this is not going anywhere. I despise an on/off relationship, which we have been doing for the last couple of months.

I guess it is time to decide and to move on...

get to know me better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

my playlist

My current playlist (during this difficult time)... Thanks for the support KA, A, S, T, N & SM.

• Maksim Mrvica - Claudine
• Maksim Mrvica - Hana's Eyes
• Estrella - Take It Slow
• Diana Krall - Besame Mucho
• Boyz II Men - End of The Road
• David Gray - This Years Love

me as at 28 feb 2009

Me as at 28 Feb 2009:

• WORK - Extremely busy and InsyaAllah I can survive the economic-crisis-job-loss stage
• COLLEGE - Another failure. But I won't give up easily.
• LOVE- Very very complicated.
• FRIENDS - Thanks for being with me all this time babe. And happy to meet new ones.
• FAMILY - Got another nephew. He was named by me. My sis and I in talking terms now :)

LIFE in total???

I just want to be happy...

p/s: is it difficult to be happy for once?

Snow in Dublin??!!!

Yup! Believe it or not, we had 2 days of snow pouring down in Dublin city! My room balcony were filled with snow last night. It was a very long cold night for me.

No, I don't have a fireplace in my room or any part of the apartment. Haha.. It would be nice if I had one. Lazying infront of the fireplace with my blanket, a good book and a mug of hot chocs sounds perfect!

Instead, I turned on the heater, hide under my duvet with my laptop watching Sepi.

Oh, I went to PCD concert on Sunday and it was brilliant! For the opening performance, we had Lady Gaga! She was all white and all cool! She performed for half an hour, and PCD performed for 2 hours! The eu49.50 that I paid is worth it. Love Lady Gaga, love PCD, love the 5 hot male dancers ;)

I took few vids and pics, before my digicam died. Yeah, I forgot to charge the battery. Silly me. I know. Neways, enjoy the vid I took aite. I haven't got the time to upload Lady Gaga.

Love this song!

I went to Rome... :)

Heya ppl! It's been a while isn't it? :) I've been busy with work. But I managed to get away from work for a couple of days. I went to Rome with some friends and the place is so beautiful! If I have the extra money, I will definitely go there again!

Happy New Year!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!