I have so much anger in me right now! And I can blow any seconds!
Then I became 13, and started my high school. Most of my friends were still in the same school, just different classes. That's when I started to hang out with different people. Hang out with other kids. Most of my primary school friends were in the top 4 class, and I'm not. It's weird hanging out with them, because they start hanging out with the genius/brilliant kids.
5 years of high school teached me that friends might not last forever. I'm one of those people who hated my own high school years. Seriously... I hate my high school years, I hate the person I become because of it. The only thing that make me strong those days was having Nazira during form 4 and 5 :) She is a good friend until now. And Adly is always there for me as well, he's been a goodfriend since I was 6! Not forgetting Dina, Mazida and Arian (Miss this peeps!)
Then came my 18 birthday. WE (High School friends) go to different colleges/universities. We see each other occasionally for get-together, farewell parties, and few others. NOT that I care more or less. Coz like I said, I have a pretty f*cked up high school years... Being fat, ugly and not rich at that time is not a good thing. And your so-called popular friends talking bad things about you behind your back is not really a good memory. But it is ok. Happy that I start getting to know new people who I was hoping to call friends as well.
College years in DBS,KL was good. I met few friends. We have our ups and downs but everything turns out to be good at the end. I miss Adura and Mohsein, my partner in crime :) Sadly they didn't make it to DBS,Dublin. How I always wish they are here..... It is going to be a LOT more fun and I'll have more boogy weekends! Teheheheheee.....
Now at the age of 23 going 24 (heheheee......), how I desperately want to believe in friends forever. It is easy to find friends to laugh and party with. But it is hard to find a real friend who will be there during your difficult time, when you broke up with your bf, or having family problems, or in need of money/job, or let you sleep at their place when you have no place to stay....
Life is hard. Having a so-called friend will make life even more complicated. Don't you think so?
Congratulations to those people who still believe in friends forever. But I'm 110% sure that right now, at this moment, I no longer believe in it (Eventho I desperately want to).
I'm just glad to have few friends with me right now :) They are great! Probably in 5-10 years time I might change my mind and says I believe in it!
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I guess that's it!!!! My super short and sweet entry :P