Wednesday, January 23, 2008

f.r.i.e.n.d.s.f.o.r.e.v.e.r?

Is it true that you can be friends forever? With your playmates when you were little, school days, college days and working days. Or is it just pure myth?

When I was 6 years old, I'm happy enough having friends from the kindergarden I went to and my playmates at home. School concerts, trip to the zoo, picnics!!!! Gosh! I still remember those days. I still remember few of my playmates. Adly, Ain, Amanda, Shoma and Aaron (We went to the same school until we were 17!!!!)

When I was 10 years old, I start believing on this friends forever thingy. I have few goodfriends at that time who I love to be with all the time. Wahidah, Adly, Zulaikha, Fatima, Liyana, Premraj, Wazzan, Dina, goshhh... I miss them all! It's been ages since I last talk to them!

Then I became 13, and started my high school. Most of my friends were still in the same school, just different classes. That's when I started to hang out with different people. Hang out with other kids. Most of my primary school friends were in the top 4 class, and I'm not. It's weird hanging out with them, because they start hanging out with the genius/brilliant kids.

5 years of high school teached me that friends might not last forever. I'm one of those people who hated my own high school years. Seriously... I hate my high school years, I hate the person I become because of it. The only thing that make me strong those days was having Nazira during form 4 and 5 :) She is a good friend until now. And Adly is always there for me as well, he's been a goodfriend since I was 6! Not forgetting Dina, Mazida and Arian (Miss this peeps!)

Then came my 18 birthday. WE (High School friends) go to different colleges/universities. We see each other occasionally for get-together, farewell parties, and few others. NOT that I care more or less. Coz like I said, I have a pretty f*cked up high school years... Being fat, ugly and not rich at that time is not a good thing. And your so-called popular friends talking bad things about you behind your back is not really a good memory. But it is ok. Happy that I start getting to know new people who I was hoping to call friends as well.

College years in DBS,KL was good. I met few friends. We have our ups and downs but everything turns out to be good at the end. I miss Adura and Mohsein, my partner in crime :) Sadly they didn't make it to DBS,Dublin. How I always wish they are here..... It is going to be a LOT more fun and I'll have more boogy weekends! Teheheheheee.....

Now at the age of 23 going 24 (heheheee......), how I desperately want to believe in friends forever. It is easy to find friends to laugh and party with. But it is hard to find a real friend who will be there during your difficult time, when you broke up with your bf, or having family problems, or in need of money/job, or let you sleep at their place when you have no place to stay....

Life is hard. Having a so-called friend will make life even more complicated. Don't you think so?

Congratulations to those people who still believe in friends forever. But I'm 110% sure that right now, at this moment, I no longer believe in it (Eventho I desperately want to).

I'm just glad to have few friends with me right now :) They are great! Probably in 5-10 years time I might change my mind and says I believe in it!

P/S:- Do leave some comment my dearest silent readers ;)

12 comments:

Azura said...

You sound very bitter there Fairy. I still have that problem till now. Its hard to trust people these days. I hated my high school days as well. Reading your entry brought back a whole lot of bad memories I had there. Is it just Melawatians? LOL I dont know. Or perhaps it was just me. Who knows. We were in the same class back in 1997. Remember? Damn... did we ever hung out together? Haha. Dun think so. Nyway... so happy to see you back here... online! Stay happy happy k!

fAirY said...

Heya Azura! of course I remember u. u in my class back in 1997. That was my super-naughty year!!! Hahahahahaaa....

Well, at least u r happily married and living in German! :) I'm so glad u found someone u can rely on. Do bring him to Dublin and visit me 1 day ok? ;)

U take care!

shle3pyb4by said...

hey there babe! yeah. its been very difficult for me too! as you know, i have only few msian friends over here. not that i dont want to befriend with the rest, but it is just too impossible to be done!

well, i have few friends whom i can call friends. and the worst is, more foreigners rather than our own people. you know who they are. and i wonder what you think about me, but you are still in my circle of people whom i can call a friend to trust. so, there you go!

its so hard to believe but what you wrote there is actually the truth! ;)

take care!

fAirY said...

Hye babe! I know what u mean! LOL!

Well.. U r in my circle of friends! Without u, I'll be super-bored n without u, it will be impossible for me n Nico to know each other :)

N I alwiz share my little secret with u! LOL.. dats y I love u! ^-^

Glad dat I know u! :D

p/s: so.. what u doing friday nite eh? ;)

shle3pyb4by said...

do you reaaaaalllllyy have to ask? ;)

hehehehe.... but maybe ill be home. as im going out the next day. whay? whats the plan? i am currently 'under the weather'...

sangat sakitttt! :(

fAirY said...

well... nico is here :) we might go out with Joseph, hahahahaaa...

lets go out and have dinner next week? After dpt gaji laaa.. Now i'm broke!

DeLinn said...

Fairy

I do believe in friends forever but I tend to agree with you that it's hard to seek that quality kind of friends. One that can sacrifice his/her life to just make you happy and live.

However, I do believe that we too have to act as such in order to gain these so-called friends-forever relationship.

I'm so sure to those who treated bad on you before, realized their loss!.

Take care fairy... :)

fAirY said...

Heya Delinn! :)

I'm glad u found THE friends. N I think I know who they are ;)

Right now I'm glad to have that few friends with me. Quality matters more than quantity.

U take care!!!

yanny said...

hi hun!!!! i sure hope im qualified to b in ur list of fwens!!!!

n dear, i noe its hard.....been der done dat....

altho im still close to my fwens (all four of them) of 10 years now so to speak...

but as for some fwens back then, i tried to reach out for them from time to time but no answer...nothing...
kinda dissapointed. cos i thot they're my best fwens...n will always b one...but i guess not

im just glad i still have some still stickin around with me!
n i think its very important for us to cherish n enjoy what we have now...cos u never now how long they'll last

cheers~

fAirY said...

Thanx miss Yanny! :) You are alwiz a sweetyyyy!!!!

U take care!!!!

addlee said...

hey my buddy from wayyy back..u dont say laa.coz u never know..hmm!!i dont know too.just keep the faith.thats what im doing now and thats how its gona be in the future.believe.miss u my fren. ;)

fAirY said...

thanx Adly :) well.. miss u too!