lost track?

I might have lost track of time, place, people... I'm just so blur this past few weeks. Too many things to handle and settle. Too many hearts to satisfied. And I ended up so tired, weak, lifeless! At least few things settled, and I'm happy for now.

Now I can focus on my studies 100%. My mind been away too many times. And now I think I got it back, and it might have hurt some people in the process. But what I need is time and space to study. I have nothing left here in Dublin other than my studies. A reminder.. I'm still jobless.

I do have good news. I bought my flight ticket to Malaysia! YES! I'm going back home for good. And I'm very happy with my decision. I can't wait to see my family and actually live with them! I don't have to be homesick ever again!

I guess I have few weeks left to hang out with my friends in Dublin. I'm going to miss you guys so much! Let's hang out before I leave aite. Spend some quality time together :) AFTER exam of course!

Wish me luck with my studies and exam!

stop yelling!

I don't need another person to yell at me every day. My life is complicated enough and I seriously don't need the yelling and the accusations.

I have my studies to catch up with, and I really need to be focusing on it. My studies/certs are the things that I'll bring with me forever.

I want to stop arguing and yelling with you. If you can't accept who I am, my friends, the way I live my life, my weird ways of thinking... Or maybe you can no longer wait for me, tell me now.

p/s: really not in a good mood this past few days. I hate myself!

my priorities...

I've never mention in here on my priorities. But I think I should as a reminder to myself.

My first priority is towards my family. I'm a family person. I can't live without them. Surprisingly I'm still alive after 4 years living abroad! Don't forget the continuous phone calls and text messages everyday between me and them. I miss them dearly...

My second priority is towards myself. It includes my studies and my career. For now, I have to witheld the career part. I'm still jobless and surviving on my savings. But I've click my full-time student mode and can't wait to finish up my last 3 papers! Wish me luck! :)

My third priority is towards that special someone. If I actually have one! Heheheeee...

My fourth priority is towards my friends. I have wonderful friends that I love to stick with til I'm old and gray.

P/S: My Fedex Raya arrived 30mins ago!!! :D Thanks mama & ayah!

i feel like screaming!

At this very moment, I do feel like screaming!

It is hard to accept the fact that you are losing someone to certain circumstances. I move forward each day as hard as I can. But sometimes I slipped. Going back there is painfull. It makes my life miserable and sad.

I guess this is another phase of my miserable life that I have to deal with. I don't think I can forget it easily or ever. Thanks for the sweet memories, but losing you as a friend is very hard for me to accept.

I guess you are right. Things aren't always the way they seem.

Nobody knows what is really happening inside. One thing for sure, I feel like screaming or maybe crying can make me feel better? Who knows... I tried that before, it seems to work for a while. Will my tears make me feel better this time? I hope it will...

P/s: Mixed emotions lead to this entry. Happy Ramadhan all!

good news!!! :D

OK! So I might over-react or wutever. But I'm really happy! :D

I took 2 papers on my last exam, and I pass 1! I got really good marks! Yippee!!!! Eventho I only pass 1 out of 2, I'm still jumping up and down!!!! Gosh! I'm really happy after a very loooong time!

Congrats to my friends who pass all papers, and one of them is already affiliate! Wait for me girl!!! I'm going to be next! hehehehee...

another movie i love :)

Yes! I can't stop watching romantic movies! I'm a sucker for romantic movies :)

It's another old movie which I love to watch and will never get bored.

Sleepless in Seattle (1993)

pretty.woman.

I just finished watching Pretty Woman. I love this movie! It was a movie made in 1990 (when I was only 6 yrs old!). I remember watching it when I was in primary school with my big sis. I love it straight away. And I keep watching it all through out my teenage yrs!

I download it a couple days ago and watched it just now. I had this butterfly feelings whenever I watched it, and I still do have it, tonight! I just love the movie!

Gosh! I know I'm a romantic-movie-freak this past weeks. But I just can't help it!

You know what people always say... When you are happy, you want the whole world to know. Well I am happy :)

plz watch this movie!

This post is entirely for a movie I just finished watching!

I'm totally in love with this movie. Plz buy the dvd, or just download it, or whatever. But to girlz out there, this movie is the best romantic movie ever!

THE OTHER END OF THE LINE (2008)

a great weekend i had :)

How was ur long weekend ppl? 3 days of holiday must be fully utilised! Despite the fact I'm on holiday every day! I had so much fun for straight 3 days with my crazeeee friends.

Serene, Nuar & Tasha sleepover the whole weekend. Saturday was great fun. We watched horror movies, a few rounds of uno, more horror stories, groceries shopping for our BBQ the next day,wedding pics/vids of Serene & Nuar, more stories of friends getting married practically every weekend!!! (kinda stressing me out a little :p) Hehe...

Sunday was super fun!!! BBQ at my place. Lotsa food consumed. Yummy food including ice-cream! We had a few round of uno again! Hehehehehe.. It was really fun :) The funniest part was the karaoke+dancing=my place was turned into a club by my beloved housemate Muntaz! Hahahaa.. But everyone had a blast ;) MIA was Dila (who is on her loooong holiday in KL), Suria & Mex (on holiday at Prague).

Today was a bit slow. We woke up really late. Lazying around, eating instant noodle, watched another horror movie! :p More horror stories from Serene! She have really good horror stories! Cool eh? ;)

Oh yeah... We had a 2 hour drama session to close up our great weekend. Thanks for spicing up our weekend!

Moving on....

I'm really happy with what I have now. I have great friends & great housemates in Dublin. I'm thankful that I have them to turn too when I'm sad, happy, crazy, just whatever! And I try my best to be someone they can rely on as well. This friendship that I found, the memories I had with you girls/guys, all the things that we went through together make our friendship stronger. InsyaAllah with His permission, we will continue to grow this friendship that we have until the end.

Another thing, I freak out when I saw all the wedding invitations & pictures of my friends every week in FB. Either they are married, engaged or thinking too. Some of them even have their own kids now! Looking at myself, I'm single, 25 years old, jobless, unfinish ACCA, I should feel sad. I have the rights to feel sad. And I did! I feel like I'm stuck in some sort of loserland. I'm not saying that I want to get married now. But it would be nice to have someone by my side in long-term.

But when I think about it again... WTH! I should enjoy my freedom. After telling my close friends how I feel, they said it is normal to feel this way. It is the 25-years-old-syndrome! (maybe i should google this!) I'm stuck in middle 20s now when most ppl are deciding on their next BIG step. That BIG step could be anything. So I made up my mind to focus on what I have now & be thankful.

I have loving family who support me all the way, great friends & housemates, that 'mystery' person that I call/text now & then, & of course I have myself. With all of this in mind, I'm happy with the fact that I can now move on & just be happy with my life :)

I'm really happy that my next destination will be Kuala Lumpur in Dec. Home sweet home... I can't wait to hug my mom, dad, sis, bros, nephews & niece! I can't wait to meet that 'mystery' person live. I can't wait to catch up with my friends back home. I just can't wait to be home.

i can be happy

How was your weekend??? Mine was great! :)

I spend Saturday morning cleaning up the apartment, my room & the main bathroom. It's squeky clean. Hehehehee.... In the afternoon, me & my housemates cook delicious lunch/dinner. We had Nasi Hujan Panas, Ayam Masak Merah & Dhal. Yummy! We invited a couple of friends over & had a great time!!! We even surprised Rina with a cake! It was her b'day & she was well.... SURPRISED! She didn't expect it at all. Another successful surprised ;) Serene & Nuar brought 2 big box of ice-cream & banana! Can you imagine how much fat we all consumed in a couple of hours???? Hahahahaa.. Plenty!!!

Sunday was a bit slow... I woke up early despite the fact that I slept at 3.30am talking with Serene & Nuar the night before! They came over around 5pm on Sunday for more hanging out & we watched a movie. It's a good movie, but very stressful! (Tasha lost most of her nails while watching this movie! Hahahahahaa...) OBSESSION, Beyonce in it. Highly recommended to girls.

As for today, I'm sitting on my bed while waiting for my friend Adura to reply my text. She came to Dublin for holiday & I'm suppose to meet her up for lunch. I think I got a minor headache coz I slept at 5am. Oh oh ohh.... I need to go for my daily shower & get ready.

But I'm still waiting for that certain someone to text me... Not Adura. Another person. Hurmm... Should I call? Damn I'm hungry!

xoxo