Tuesday, July 27, 2010


Hello readers! Did you noticed that I've been blogging quite often lately? That's because I have a fab life! Really! Hahahaa.... The real reason is there are too many things in my mind right now and I want it out! Since my blog is not on private mode, I can't really write freely because I still have to think about other people's feelings (as if they think about mine!). Oh well...

I'm really addicted to twitter. Not that I tweet every 5mins! But I love reading the tweet quotes. There are TweetMoveOn, iheartquotes, TheSingleWoman, twiquotations and many more! The latest that I really love and want to share with you is from TweetMoveOn.

Being alone is better than being together with a wrong person - @wilzkanadi #TMO

The quote is spot on! That is exactly how I feel. I rather be alone than being with the wrong person. I don't want to be in a relationship with someone that I can live with. I want to be in a relationship with someone I can't live without.

I don't want to just settle down with a guy who can provide me good home, good family, stable life, no financial worries, but the end of the day... there's lack of love. It's just the same boring routine, and the feelings will slowly fade away.

I don't want to settle down with a guy who loves me too much, and the reality is I only want us to be good friends instead. Because I can't hide my feelings and it will hurt the guy at the end of the day. Even if he don't care how I feel about him, but I care. I can't pretend.

I don't want to be with someone just because I'm lonely and bored. I used to do this. Yes. I admit I was not a very good person myself. But I can't help it. Now I realize I can't just go out with someone out of boredom or loneliness, because I might fall for him for real. Or the guy might fall for me, and that's when I took off.

Mom said that I always runaway whenever a guy starts to get too close/committed in the relationship. The truth is I get bored easily. If I'm not, the guy would.

I'm suckers for romantic movies, romantic comedies, and whatever related to love. I can give good advice to my friends (I think!), but I can't seems to apply it to myself! I need my friends to give advices, to show me the way... I even read books such as -It's Called A Break Up Because It's Broken: The Smart Girl's Break Up Buddy- to wakes me up from the bad break up I had last year with my 2 years ex-boyfriend.

I have wonderful friends around me, but at the end of the day I'm still alone. But the quote above wakes me up from my dreamland. Being alone (like me) is better than being with the wrong person.

I've met few guys... lots of guys.. and none of them makes me crazy (I-can't-live-without-you-craziness!). So I still believe my prince charming is still out there, lost on his way to me. Yeah.. I'm still in my dreamland, but at least I feel better being alone now.

To girls out there who's already married, engaged or in serious relationship, I wish you good luck! May you have a better love life than me :)

xoxo fairy

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