happy birthday to me :)

miserable life i have...

I'm very stress and emotional at the moment. Nope! I'm SUPER-DUPER stress and emotional since Friday. Things not working as planned. Got into a BIG fight with SM. Sorry ms.akma if what I said hurt u in any way (I want the best for u). I missed my mom and dad. I got a strong feeling that my bro is pissed off with me (sorry bro. I'll make it up to u). Exam is in 2 weeks. I don't even have the mood to study. I feel like throwing ALL my books/notes to the bin! I don't even feel like talking to anyone right now.

At least SM is back to normal. But I feel so lost and lonely... I seriously need a hug,a big hug preferably from my mom and dad. I think I'm homesick. It's been a while since I felt this way. I want to go home! Now!

*sob*sob*sob*

Yes.. I have a miserable life here in Dublin.

i'm sorry... i don't hate u.never.

So last night I was in a silly argument. Without thinking, I said out loud -You evil! I hate u!-. I know it was too late to cover up my mouth! Gosh! How can I be so mean?? So I was hoping that SM didn't hear what I said! Too bad for me, SM heard it and asked me to repeat!!! I feel like I wanna hide under my duvet, switch off my phone for eternity, off the buzzer to my apartment, and just stay quietly in my room! And pray that SM will never find me! Hehee...

To SM, I'm really sorry... I don't hate you. Never! You are my life saver. You know that. And I love you for that. I have to get rid of all this negative vibes in me, and talk nicely. THINK BEFORE I SAY SOMETHING!

On other issue, I need to get serious with the books! Exam is less than 3 weeks and I need to focus! So please please please go away (to all the things that distract me) and let me study (not sleeping!).

Taa!!!

climbing up the stairs.. erk.. books??!

Yup, I am climbing up the stairs of books! hahahaaa...

home alone...

The girlz are off for a road trip today and will be back on Sunday. I'll be home alone the whole weekend! It's been a while since I was left alone in the apartment. Hurmm... I think I'll be fine. I need to study neway.

Oh. Another thing. I just hate it when people who barely knows me talked bad things about me. Telling other people how I used to be like. Hello.... Are you even my friend? So how do you know what's been going on in my life for the past years? I wonder... And it's obviously none of your business! And please stop creating stories about me or my friends, saying nasty things when obviously you don't even have a friend? I pity you at first. But now you are just pissing me off.

The only reason that make me stop from 'attacking' you is .. You are just not worth my time. So buzz off and leave me alone. And leave my friends too. Maybe you have a miserable life and you just can't sit still when you see other people happy. But... Whatever! Like I care! Just stay away from me and my friends.

Why? Why? Why? Why?!!! Why people like you just can't leave me alone? I don't even wanna be your friend, and I don't even care about you to actually talked about you. And you are wasting my 10min to blog about you? Damn! Just stay away and I'll be fine. And stop talking nonsense that can make me fight with my friends.

Sorry.. I'm a little bit emo this morning. Hope you guys have a good weekend. I know I'm not.